no matter how restrictive they are, and even though i yearn to break away from them, every night they are the ones waiting up for me, and even if i live to 100, they'll always be irreplaceable..

thank the beings above that the doctor said you're alright, and i sadly found out that the phone conversation today was probably more than what we've spoken the entire weekend.

i should show my love more. even if i love my family more than i love my friends, i seem to spend more time outside than in the house.

i guess if i am suddenly to live without my family, i would be lost, all my actions would become meaningless, for i will be accountable only to myself. and though it sounds nice sometimes, but really, it'll feel empty..

can you imagine spending years to get accustomed to a person's presence, gestures, moods and suddenly have it taken away from you out of the blue?

at times like this, i wish i had a religion, for i can't prevent such a thing from happening. i just hope later rather than sooner..